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 These are notes on how I have been using the Sign of the Cross (SOTC) in my prayer and ritual work recently. This has emerged gradually for me, over a period of months, and it feels to me like I am being taught how to use it. Most of what I'm describing here arose out of what I found myself doing rather than being thought out beforehand.

The classic way to do the SOTC in the Western church is, with the right hand, to touch forehead, middle of breast, left shoulder, right shoulder, usually combined with the words, "In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost" - or Holy Spirit if you prefer. In Latin the words are, In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti".
 
In the Eastern Church the SOTC is done with the horizontal direction reversed, from right to left instead of left to right.

Each of the Churches has rules on how you are supposed to hold your fingers while doing the SOTC, and each is adamant that theirs is the one correct way. I have seen varying directions. It is not something I pay attention to.

The SOTC is usually done very quickly and often absentmindedly, as a quick formality - I suspect most people are only half-aware of doing it. I've taken to doing it more slowly, and paying attention to what goes on while I do it.

Some time back I noticed I was touching my hand to my solar plexus, at the base of the sternum, rather than at the heart. That feels more grounded to me now. I as individual am centered on the solar plexus, and the heart is more trans-personal - it is where I identify with Christ and with all other people. Touching the cross at the solar plexus gets it all the way into my body.

I now visualize it something like this:

In the Name of the Father - hand at the top of my forehead, attention turned above me.

And of the Son - I bring the light down, and while I touch the solar plexus I visualize a line of light descending, down from above, and then going down through me and into the depths of the earth.

And of the Holy Ghost - I say that while drawing the horizontal line, shoulder to shoulder. As I am raising my hand from solar plexus to shoulder I visualize that line of light re-ascending upwards and rising to my heart as I draw the cross-bar.

Amen - depending where I am I may just touch my hand to my heart and dwell there for a moment. If I am at home I often interlace my fingers and raise my arms so that the elbows are pointed outwards horizontally, and the palms of my hand are focused facing my heart.

I then dwell for a moment on the shape of the entire cross.

Recently I have noticed that, if I pause with my attention of the heart,I often get a sensation of glowing warmth, and I feel that expand to fill the entire ovoid area around my body. If I take my time I can let the outer edges of the ovoid get a bit clearer and more distinct, so what is built is a very effective aura shield. It also serves as an aura cleansing and banishing.

If I take my time the whole process takes maybe six ten seconds. Now that I'm used to it, if I need to I can focus attention just on my heart and see the entire structure all at once - cross, light at heart, ovoid aura shield filled with soft light - and that takes one or two seconds.

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I always start my day with a stretching and exercise routine. After my exercises and before sitting down to prayer I do a formal invoking, centering and banishing ritual called the Sphere of Protection - SOP for short. There is a series of instructions for the Druid form of the SOP on John Michael Greer's blog at Dreamwidth - if you are new to it you can read a sequence of posts on it here -

Sphere of Protection Ritual.
 
I have modified it, especially at the opening and closing portion, to make it more distinctly Catholic. Here I want to look at just the opening portion of the rite, which is focused on the SOTC. This little opening would make a very nice banishing ritual all by itself.

As part of it I combine the SOTC with this banishing prayer, which is from the rite of Compline.

Visit, we beseech thee, O Lord, this habitation, and drive far from it all the deadly power of the Enemy. Let thy holy angels dwell with us to preserve us in peace, and let thy blessing be upon us always. Through Jesus Christ thy Son our Lord, who liveth and reigneth with thee, in the unity of the Holy Ghost, ever one God, world without end. Amen.

To open, after doing the basic SOTC I now add the following.

Visit, we beseech thee, O Lord, this habitation, and drive far from it all the deadly power of the Enemy.  - draw a large cross in the air right in the middle of the room.

Let thy holy angels dwell with us to preserve us in peace - I draw a cross on my body.

and let thy blessing be upon us always - I stretch out my hands and take a step forward so that my body is at one with the large cross I first drew. I stay in that posture through the closing phrase of the prayer.

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This next piece I add after that opening, and before I go around and do the four elements. This is a streamlined form I derived from the Golden Dawn Rose Cross ritual. I no longer use the Hebrew god names associated with that ritual, and I find the usual Catholic words to work well.

To do this I walk to each of the corners of the room in turn, drawing a large cross while saying the SOTC cross prayer.

Once that is done I have built a circular structure in the room that has the large cross in the center, and the four crosses at the corners.

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There are other ways of using the SOTC, for blessing things or for banishing and cleansing things, and they all derive from the principles I've outlined here. To use the SOTC you have to have it built within you, with the light alive and focused in the heart. If I do an SOTC over any object I always do the SOTC on myself first.
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 I want to talk about my experience this past Good Friday.

I am sensitive to the quality of spiritual light in worship, and this past Easter Week the energy in the Easter Triduum (Good Friday, Easter Vigil, Easter Sunday) was particularly vivid and intense - at Holy Saturday, which is the peak of the entire Church year, the spiritual light was so intense the air was practically shimmering, and I got giddy and started laughing. This is not an "occult" thing - I mentioned it to one of the other choir members and he agreed; he knew what I was talking about. I think a lot of people sense and react to this, whether or not they think about it the same way I do.

Each of the days in the Easter week celebration has its own particular quality of light, and this week the Good Friday light was quite intense in a particular sort of way. The phrase that came to mind during the service was, the Empty Light.
 
Good Friday commemorates the day of the suffering and death of Christ on the cross, and his being placed in a tomb of rock. This is the one day of the year that it is forbidden to celebrate the Mass, so in a sense it is the day of the absence of Christ. Why, then, is this light special? 

The phrase Empty Light caught something for me. It felt like this is a special light that will suck up anything - any hurt, any pain, any emotional or spiritual wound, maybe physical wounds also.

Behold, the Lamb of God, behold Him that taketh away the sins of the world.

That is what this Empty Light does - take away the sins of the world - absorbs them, sucks them up, heals them by dissolving into the Empty Light. This is not a figure of speech, nor is it a conceptual abstraction about something that happens to us after death. This is a spiritual and energetic reality available here and now.
 
We need to think about sin here in a broader sense of the term to understand this experience, since the sins that this light takes away are not always or even primarily moral issues. This means sin in the sense of any wound, any brokenness, any pain, any place of lack of wholeness. Jesus came to heal ALL of our sins and diseases, unconditionally. 

There is not a single incident of Jesus healing in the entire New Testament where he demanded a confession first. 
 
Even in the parable of the Prodigal Son, as soon as the father saw his son coming he ran out to greet him and ordered the fatted calf to be slaughtered for the feast - he didn't wait for an apology or an explanation or a demand for penance. The only demand was for his returning to the Father - he could not be welcomed home until he returned home.

That is what the word Repent means - turn back, turn around, return home.

There is a price for the sort of healing that the Empty Light of Good Friday offers - we need to be willing to let go of our hurts and wounds. That seems like a no-brainer, but it is not always easy to let go of old resentments, old bitterness - places where we've been badly hurt and are not ready to let go of the bitter pleasure of blaming, complaining and hating the person who hurt us. We also need to let go of indulging in the bittersweet wine of self-pity.

This is where forgiveness comes in - we can only be forgiven and healed where we in turn are ready to forgive. For-give - we give our wound to the Empty Light, and for that wound the Light returns to us a wholeness and peace. No healing without forgiveness - That is the price we have to pay.

That's the Empty Light, and I understand that in a new way thanks to this gift on Good Friday. That light is always there, always available, whenever I turn my heart to Him in prayer, for myself or for others. We celebrate Good Friday, and that Light, whenever the priest offers up the host in the sacrifice of the Mass. 

Lord, I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof; Only say the word and my soul shall be healed.
 
I leave you with a recording of the Good Friday music from act 3 of Wagner's Parsifal, conducted by Rudolf Kempe.
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I have been a practicing member of the Roman Catholic church for a couple of years now. Prior to that I have some experience with magic ritual, in the Golden Dawn tradition. I am now at a point with my regular Catholic prayer and worship that I feel the need to integrate what I learned from my previous ritual work with my current worship.

Part of the challenge there is that I attend a regular Catholic parish, so the people around me don't have an esoteric or other ritual background. I can tell that I think about the Mass very differently from the people around me.

In the past few months I feel like I am being taught from within, during Mass, ways to use my occult awareness during the service to deepen it for me, and maybe to also contribute to the general energy and atmosphere. That is what I want to talk about here,

I am sitting here writing this the morning of Monday April 8, the Feast of the Annunciation, and the day of a Solar Eclipse that has significance for me astrologically, along with the Mars/Saturn conjunction that happens two days from now. While I was in prayer this morning, I got the strong sense that I should be writing about the occult side of my experience, and the name The Occult Catholic came into my mind.

Behold, the servant of the Lord; be it done unto me according to Thy Word.

I want to be clear that I do not consider myself an expert or Adept or particularly evolved. I'm an ordinary person who happens to have a sensitivity to this area of experience, and I want to talk about what I'm learning. Maybe some other people will find my notes here useful, and hopefully I will benefit from comments and feedback from others who might be walking along a similar path.

I really doubt that I am the only person who approaches regular Mass participation with this sort of awareness. In fact, it seems likely to me that previous eras in history saw most occult practitioners regularly attending Mass or whatever service was the norm in the culture, since that is what people were expected to do - attend Church regularly. In fact I would not be surprised if a lot of occult technique grew out of regular worship participation and was then extended privately.

This seems like a good time to get this conversation going. This days it seems like there are serious walls between the Catholic world and the Occult world. I live in both of them and can speak both languages, and I'd like to contribute towards breaking down at least some of the misunderstanding and hostility that exists between those worlds.

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Before I wrap up here I want to mention that I am aware of another site, THAVMA, https://thavmapub.com/, subtitled, Catholic Occultism and Magic in General. I am aware of his work and have read some of it, and he is not doing quite the same thing that I plan to do here. The world of Catholic and the Occult is a pretty broad area, and I think there is room for multiple approaches.

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Up to now my main blog has been over on my astrology site, https://studentofastrology.com. I decided to start this new blog, because there are just too many things I want to think through and share that don't fit there.

I also need a place where I don't have to put as many self-imposed filters on my speech.

I don't claim to be an original thinker. There are many, many intelligent, articulate and perceptive writers and podcasters out there, who I think have a very good handle on what is going on in the world today. Some of them are on this Dreamwidth site, which is why I chose it.

That means I will spend a lot of time thinking through the implications of ideas I read elsewhere. If it furthers the conversation on the web - if it helps to keep intelligent conversation alive - then it's worth it.

Of course, there is at least one more meaning to this post title Why am I here? - meaning, why am I alive right here and right now? These days I feel about as useful as a backup dishwasher on the Titanic, so I'll probably be thinking about that question here also.

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